If You Had To Write A Small Script About Your Life , How Would It Read?

 My name is Judy I live in Missouri.I have five children Bryce 16, Hayley 13,Jaydin 7,Nayvin 5 and Drayton 1o months.I've basically been a single parent all my life.I was married for 5 years to a alcoholic. I tried to take my vals to heart but when you are working 3 jobs and takeing care of 2 kids ,more alcohol in the fridge then food it's time to call it quits . Nomatter how much you love someone they have got to want to change. I was single for a few years working two jobs liveing with my dad and trying to cope with my mom dying of cancer.That was rough I tried to commit suicide starting useing meth and drinking my pain away. One night while out with so called friends I swear I met the devil face to face. This person or demon knew things about me I never told anyone! It literally scared the crap out of me. The next day I went to church and swore on my mothers grave to never touch the crap again.I still drink socially but i have been clean for almost 12 years.Everyone falls from grace,but it takes a even stronger person to pick there selves up and try again! My next relationship was with one of those guys our mama's warn us about,if it's to good to be true,run like hell! Everything was great till we got out on the road doing assfault work. Then I became a possesion not aloud to leave our hotel room if I got caught talking to someone I was mentally and physically abused. I sent my oldest son home with my sister and father,wanting to go home myself but things weren't good.One night Travis came home so drunk and noticed me and my daughter swimming and there were several people there, he grabbed me by my hair and pulled me out of the pool kicking and screaming I tried to get away cause I could see he was probally going to kill me,or make me wish I was dead! We got to the room and he put my daughter in the bathroom then started calling me a whore and hitting me, the last thing I remember he was choking me. I woke up in my daughters arms,tears streaming down her face.That was it enough I called my dad and told him what had been happening went to the closes bus stop got on a bus and came home. A few months went by and I started getting really sick,thats when I found out I was pregnant I almost aborted the child because what everyone else was telling me to do but while waiting at the clinic,I felt this little miracle kicking like crazy begging for a chance.I couldnt do it. Its not the childs fault for the fathers sins! About three years qwent by and I met my prince charming, or I thought! He was a handsome puerto rican prince, we started with nothing as long as we had food shelter and love thats all that mattered. To me yes but after the first year he changed. His family moved next door to us and he started staying out late at night bring in things I knew we couln't afford.I was pregnant with Nayvin and tried to cope with the truth I was with a drug dealer! I begged and pleaded with him to quit before something bad happend, but that wasn't enough. Our house got raided 3 times in less then a week. One of the detectives showed me his files, I couldn't believe it I was just a cover up! I started working with the police scared if he found out he would kill me and my kids but if I didn't the state was going to take them away. So we set him up. I hated that! He went away for 2 years, and is finally clean I think? Then I met Phillip don't know what the deal was there. No mager problems just that he didn't want to work or when he did he blew his money instead of helping pay bills.He came to pick me up from work on Thanksgiving with Nayvin. I was working at a truckstop, my son is a handful, Nayvin was crying wanting candy and Phillip slapped him across the face. I had a fresh cup of coffee,threw it in Phillips face and told him to go get his stuff and get out! It's one thing to hit me but NEVER EVER LAY YOUR HANDS ON MY CHILDREN! I've had a rough life but I'm still here still fighting I finally found my diamond in the rough! A single father with 1 son and @ misfits he took in.All in all I don't think I will ever live happily ever after but with determenation and faith, I will SURVIVE!